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July 9th, 2008

01:20 pm - I just love this: This was found here: http://jwz.livejournal.com/908811.html?style=mine Also, it's cooler in my office today and I've actually been PRODUCTIVE. Go figure :-) Current Mood: amused Tags: humor, no pets

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July 8th, 2008

12:20 pm - The summer heat ... So it's that one or two week period during the summer when life is just hellish due to the heat. It was hot enough over the weekend, but yesterday it was 102F and I believe it's supposed to be 110F today. It's just HOT - AFRICA HOT! And it's a bit humid, too, which isn't our norm. Couple that with the smoke from the burning parts of California, and it's not very pleasant to be outside right now - even for the healthiest of folks. Heat is probably my biggest ... pet peeve? Is that even the best way to put it? I hate being hot, hate the heat. Yet I live in a valley known for the hot summers - yes, I know this. But my family and friends are here, I grew up here... and here I am. I avoid the heat as much as possible, but when it's this hot, there's no real way to avoid it. You just have to get through it. But just to make everything more interesting, the a/c in my office at work isn't really working this week. So yesterday afternoon, it was 85F inside my office. It's something I've been notifying my landlord about for the past several weeks, and they've been dragging their feet a bit, but I was also going through the proper channels - the gal who was in charge of the office. I ditched that route and went directly to the owners/main tenants of the building. And now it's gotten to a point that I've had to say: fix it or release me from my lease so I can find more suitable digs. It's just not workable. So my frustration level is a bit high this week - not to mention that I'm not very productive. Since this has been an ongoing thing for a couple of weeks, I'm actually pretty fed up - I've put a lot of energy and effort into getting things settled and letting them know about the heat issues, and I'm trying to be reasonable to give them a chance to remedy the problem. Now that it's over 100F every day this week, they've decided to work on it. But most cooling companies are pretty busy - go figure. So it'll be interesting to see how this works out. I don't want to move my office, but I can't work this way so if I have to move, I have to move. As my brother would say: sucks to be me this week. How much longer until fall? Current Location: home Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: the hum of the a/c Tags: hot, summer, weather

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February 11th, 2008

09:24 pm - Hi So... just thought I'd stop by and say hi. So much has changed over the last several months, but I really don't know where to start or what to say. So instead, I'll post the results of the highly scientific test I took tonight. I really know very little about Tarot, and yet tonight I felt compelled to find out which Tarot card I am. Turns out, I'm the Wheel of Fortune... which is ironic since I don't even like that show.... You are The Wheel of Fortune Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of intoxication with success The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change. What Tarot Card are You? Take the Test to Find Out. Current Location: Home Current Mood: calm Current Music: Kitty purring

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September 4th, 2006

09:43 pm - Oh yeah I have this new little icon, but I'm not sure it'll work.... still, it amused me greatly (yes yes... I know it's easy...). Current Mood: chipper

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08:23 pm Some of this is spot-on, almost in an erie way, while other bits aren't too true.  I'm sure one or two answers can make a big difference... Still, I find these damn things interesting: My Personality   Neuroticism 49 Extraversion 67 Openness To Experience 66 Agreeableness 56 Conscientiousness 10 Test Yourself Compare Yourself View Full Report MySpace Surveys, MySpace Layouts and Personality Test by Pulseware Survey Software Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Crazy" is playing in my head... coincidence?

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August 1st, 2006

11:24 pm - one more thought for the day... I've always wondered what my brain looks like...  actually there's some truth in this "analysis", but I imagine they're all written to hit on most anyone.  Still, I enjoy these things.. Your Brain's Pattern Your brain is always looking for the connections in life. You always amaze your friends by figuring out things first. You're also good at connecting people - and often play match maker. You see the world in fluid, flexible terms. Nothing is black or white. What Pattern Is Your Brain Current Mood: sleepy

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July 30th, 2006

10:20 pm - Sunday night Sunday nights are sometimes difficult - they're a mixture of winding down from the weekend and preparing for the week.  Of course, I think weekends need to be longer to get in everything you want (and need) to do.  Two days just isn't enough.  I want to play and rest and work and visit and go and do and sleep and clean and ... two days isn't enough.  At the same time, I like working... which feels really weird to say.  I think it's because it's something I can DO...and I can see a result, get a sense of accomplishment.  But it's WORK. So now on for more fun: through StumbleUpon, another addiction of mine, I found this NEW nerd test tonight...   I'm happy to report that I'm not as nerdy as previously indicated. <

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July 25th, 2006

09:51 pm - Geek, and expendable at that... It's hot here, as it is everywhere.  But I'm sooo done with summer - I've had enough of this infernal, eternal heat.  I feel both oppressed and depressed by it.  I wonder if it's possible to have SAD in the summer...?  At any rate, I'm ready to go back to some kind of "normal" temps.  Better yet, let's just go to fall.  Instead of a long summer and a short fall, we'll reverse 'em and have a nice, long fall.  At the same time I'm feeling crabby as hell, I feel somewhat easily amused tonight as well...  I found this little quiz and couldn't resist.  When I got the results, I laughed and laughed.  Hard. Now you can play, too: Your results: You are An Expendable Character (Redshirt) An Expendable Character (Redshirt) 70% Deanna Troi 60% Jean-Luc Picard 55% Chekov 50% Geordi LaForge 50% Worf 50% Uhura 45% Will Riker 45% Mr. Scott 40% Beverly Crusher 40% Leonard McCoy (Bones) 40% Spock 37% Data 32% Mr. Sulu 25% James T. Kirk (Captain) 25% Since your accomplishments are seldom noticed,   and you are rarely thought of, you are expendable. That doesn't mean your job isn't important but if you were in Star Trek you would be killed off in the first episode you appeared in. Click here to take the "Which Star Trek character am I?" quiz... Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: the hum of the a/c

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April 22nd, 2006

03:23 pm - Moments of amusement So as I'm starting to finally feel like some sort of "normal" human again, I've been reconnecting with people and thoughts and feelings and ... everything. It feels good. Today I haven't actually accomplished much, but I'm okay with that. I guess the reconnecting could be considered somewhat productive. I'm rather enjoying myself and I'm pretty happy today, so I'll go with that for now. I've been looking at web-pages I haven't bothered to check in ages, goofing around a bit, chatting on moo. But while looking through some web-pages, I found this little gem.   For some reason, this amuses me greatly. I've been sitting here just laughing and giggling at the idea of using this thing in the car as you're driving down the road. I laugh all over again every time I think about it. The idea of someone holding up that big black phone... it just kills me! Yes, I'm truly a geek, I suppose, but I at least had to share on the chance that there are others out there... Current Mood: amused Current Music: Our House by Madhouse

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October 21st, 2005

11:00 pm - Hiya La la la... I don't have anything of interest to say. I'm merely glad it's Friday and it's nice out and I'm relatively well. I'll be working on the now long overdue project this weekend, and I will email my advisor in hopes of getting to see her within the next week or so. I can't believe we're nearly done with October...time seems to just FLY by... how does that work? Anway, that's really all. More "la la la..." I suppose that's enough! Current Mood: chipper

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August 18th, 2005

11:58 pm - Hola I keep thinking that this is Friday night, which would be really nice about now... to know that I didn't have to get up early in the morning.  I thought I'd pass out watching tv tonight.  I haven't watched much of anything this summer - I've barely had the tv on at all, really.  And I don't miss it.    It was fun to relax and watch a few sitcoms tonight - mostly Scrubs.  It made me laugh out loud a few times.  Not that I'm a big tv watcher (it's the non-interactive box in the corner), but I'm not missing it much at all.  Maybe I'll even lay off the mooing.... well, not to rush into anything.... I should be sleeping though - I haven't slept much this week.  I keep waking up at 2 -3am and then I'm awake for a couple of hours.  By the time I go back to sleep, I should be getting up to get an early start.  Instead, I've overslept 3 days this week.  Hopefully, I'll catch up with myself this weekend and get back on a regular schedule.  And it's soooo lovely and sooo much cooler out!  It's enlivening and exhilirating!  It's such a nice change from the heat of the summer.  I'm really looking forward to fall - yay autumn!  I have all these things that I've had on the back-burner and now I feel like I can get them out and go for it.  More importantly, I'm motivated.  This is a good thing.  I didn't realize, until last weekend when it first started to cool a bit, how opressed I was feeling by the overwhelming heat. I do feel much more relaxed tonight.  Since I have a commute, I generally have my radio tuned to NPR.  And I've been a bit of a news junkie more and more this past year or two.  But I think it's taking a bit of a toll on me as well.  I like listening and keeping up, paying attention to what's going in the world and even here in the States.  But it can also be really frustrating and wear one down.  I don't feel mcuh like a participator at all but mostly like a witness.  I don't like what I'm witnessing in many cases, but I'm powerless to change any of it.  I guess that's the trick, isn't it?  You have to learn what to take in and what to let go by, what and how you interact with the world, etc.  But sometimes it makes me tense and I find myself talking back to the radio, yelling when appropriate.  I think about the future in ways that never occurred to me before.  I'm a bit afraid, but not for myself.  But again, I'm powerless - or at least, I feel like I am.  That's why carefully selected (according to what's on) tv sitcoms can be a good thing. Yeah, I can't wax poetic on a good day, and not that I'm trying, but I'm not expressing myself very well either.  I'm suddenly feeling so sleepy.  Maybe it's time for sleep afterall.... Current Mood: calm Current Music: Ben Folds on Letterman

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January 2nd, 2005

04:40 am - 456 456 or, to be more exact, 4:56am. That's what time I rolled over and looked at the clock in that state of half-consciousness. But for some reason, I didn't just drift back off to sleep. Instead, my mind engaged. "Hey... look.... 4... 5 ... 6." This shouldn't be anything special because these sort of chronological groupings happen fairly frequently in time, but for some reason, it stood out. Anyway, I couldn't go back to sleep right away, and after 20 minutes, I decided to quit tossing and turning and pretending like it didn't happen. So here I am. The thing I notice now is that it's not yet 4:56am. That's because I set my bedroom clocks (I have two) faster than the actual time, because I have a tendency to either hit the snooze button a few times or turn it off altogether. That can cause one to be late. By setting the clocks a little fast, I have magically allowed myself a bit of extra time. Yes, I know I'm really only fooling myself, but it seems to work. Most of the time. Now that I think about it, I'm still late quite a bit. I'm not really sure why I'm awake right now, other than the clock thing. Usually that's just a symptom. But now that I am, I'm feeling rather loquacious. It's a tough time of day to feel this way as no one I know is awake - especially on a Sat night/early Sun morning. Most sane people are sleeping. I should be sleeping. But here I am, writing in odd snippets of thought for who the hell knows... maybe for my own posterity. Maybe I'll go back and read this a few months from now and realize, "Oh yeah... that's when I really started to lose it." Or hopefully, "Oh yeah... things really changed after that." Either is possible. Neither is likely. The water is finally boiling, so I'm going to have some hot tea to soothe away .... to soothe away consciousness and time, I guess. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: the boiling kettle of water

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November 30th, 2004

03:10 am - Sleeping Note to self: no matter how tired you think you are, do NOT try to go to bed before 10 or 11pm as you always wake up in the middle of the night. You'd think I'd have learned this, but each time it feels like it will be different. I think I was asleep by 9pm last night, but it's now 3am and I've been awake for an hour. I'm sure I'll get back to sleep within the hour, give or take, but I'm not fond of being up in the middle of the night, dammit. DAMMIT I SAY. In other non-news, it's damn cold here. It seems early in the season, but maybe not - I just don't remember. The temps have been running around 32F or lower for the past few nights, and only about 48-50 in the day. Even I'm cold, which is just... keen. I don't mind being a bit cold here and there. I keep the heater down at 60-62 at night, but it still goes on and off all night. I've actually turned it up to 65 to take the chill off now - I'm soooo living on the edge! I went to my friend's this weekend and she had a fire going in the fireplace - that was so cool! It just smelled damn good. She even used real wood - not one of those fake-n-bake logs. She also had her Christmas tree up already (tho not decorated), so her house had that lovely pine smell as well. Now that it's getting nice and warm in here, and I've eaten the last of the pumpkin pie (I hope it hadn't "expired" yet), I'm starting to get sleepy again. Yay me. Kitty's already sleeping so I think it's time to join her and get s'more sleep. Current Mood: content Current Music: the sweet sound of the gas heater

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November 22nd, 2004

12:29 am - Hiya I've been in a weird mood off and on the last several days. I can't (or won't) quite place it. It's not horrible, but not necessarily pleasant, either. I've also had a mild (*cough*) obsession with Colin Firth since seeing the second Bridget Jones movie.... I just think he's the cat's meow - and that's putting it mildly. I'm not one to really get obsessed with stars/actors/etc, so I'm both amused and curious by this obsession. As with the mood, this, too, shall pass. Maybe. I finally got a chance to work at a soup kitchen on Saturday. Ironically, I thought I would be working for Thanksgiving morning, but apparently they schedule this one on the Saturday before so that volunteers can spend the time with family. Interesting - volunteer, but make sure it doesn't interrupt your schedule. Still, it was interesting and fun and I'm glad I did it. I told myself that once I got out of school, I'd find ways to volunteer and get involved more in the community. This was a start. I'd like to finish my damn project before getting too involved, but I think I'll also be doing some volunteer work for the local ballet company in the spring. Baby steps. Job stuff? In flux - not worth going into.... Final Project? Still not done and running out of time. This next weekend will be a big push - even if it kills me. Next year holds lots of promise and change, and I have no idea how much of it will progress. It feels very open-ended right now, and I think I like that. At least for the time being. (Subject to change without notice). Movies are fun. Music is good. Sweats are wonderful. Fall colors are lovely. Kitty puts a smile on my face. Family keeps me stable. Friends keep me sane, tho some of the dearest ones I haven't kept up with in the last six months - something to change very soon. I hope they know and understand. Still looking for middle ground, a balance, in all things. Or, more honestly, sometimes I just stare into the abyss, hoping the balance will work its way forward. Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: Gabrielle - Out of Reach

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September 28th, 2004

09:06 pm - Bummin' Today I've been sort of a bum. ALL. DAY. And I"ve fluctuated between feeling guilty and enjoying myself immensely. I haven't really had a day where I did nothing all day - where I haven't had to leave the house for some reason or other. Well, not in ages anyway. I LOVE IT. It's been so nice... and the weather has been cool today - maybe 83F, give or take. Lovely...just lovely. Tomorrow I have an interview that the temp agency set up, and another appt. in the afternoon. After that, I need to run some errands, I think. I have bigger, long-term plans that I really need to start on in this next week, but for today, I just enjoyed :-) Current Mood: happy

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September 24th, 2004

10:19 am - Just today I'm incredibly tired today, for some unknown reason. It may be because I'm finally starting to relax a bit from the job from hell. It really has been about 5+ months of balls-to-the-wall energy of every kind. I suppose it takes a while to recuperate from that. Also, I had a massage yesterday, which was just lovely :-) But again, that may have been part of the relaxation process that I'm still feeling today. I don't have any work or interviews until Wednesday morning, which is both good and scary. It's only scary because of money - that stuff that allows me to do many other things. But it's nice that I have some time to catch up with myself a bit, catch up with some friends, and even get a few things done. I'm goofing off today with a friend - she's coming by around lunchtime then we're going for lunch and a movie. I'll make more calls this morning, and this weekend I'll do a few more chores around here. I really have let so many things go over the last months...it feels good to at least start making a dent. That's all the really (un)exciting news I have for the moment. As always, this is subject to change without notice, but I'm okay with being unexciting right now - it feels GOOD. Oh yeah - I did book tickets for Baltimore yesterday. That still feels a bit surreal, too, but I think it will be an adventure. I'm basically going sailing for 3 days! It feels like I'm doing this somewhat spontaneously, but I think that's what makes it fun, too :-) Bye for now! Current Mood: peaceful

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September 22nd, 2004

10:51 pm - Wow So I keep waiting for a good reason to post, and I keep thinking that a) it would take too much to catch up with current stuff, or b) there's just nothing that interesting to post about it. However, I've decided that c) it just doesn't matter! Post, dammit. Soooo....hiya. I'm between jobs right now for the temp agency. It actually feels pretty good at the moment. I'm sort of decompressing and recuperating from the last ghastly assignment, but I'm not yet scheduled elsewhere. Yes, I wanted to take this week off to catch up on things, but if I don't get work soon, I will be worrying about money again rather quickly. It's always a crap shoot. So that's the long and the short right now: work, no work, goofing off, still have lots of folks I would like to catch up with, reconnect, etc., and then there's my unfinished project. I'm feeling much pressure in this area as the clock is ticking: tick tick tick tick. DAMMIT. I have a few other oddball things going on, but I'll go into those later. Honest. For now, relax and then sleep. Current Mood: blank

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April 5th, 2004

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February 8th, 2004

09:01 pm - Fortunate Souls I just ate a fortunate cookie: "Your greatest fortune is the friends and family you have." I couldn't agree more... Current Mood: content Current Music: Alicia Keys on the Grammys

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February 7th, 2004

12:54 pm - Hot damn :-) Things are much better now. I never really came out of the funk on Thursday, though I spent most of the evening watching tv to sort of escape. Friday was much better - did the temp interview/testing thing. I did well on all the tests they gave me (3 hours worth!), and they were pretty happy with the multitude of skills and experience I have...they couldn't figure out why I was coming to them exactly. I had to explain that not only did I really just want temp work, but I wanted part-time. That seems to be the hardest part - most folks want someone full-time. Part-time doesn't come up as frequently. Anyway, we'll see - they were going to make some calls on my behalf. I felt pretty damn good about myself and the job thing when I left there. I think it was a big of a confidence boost to have done well on the tests and then hear praises from the two folks I talked with. I suppose the fact that it was Friday didn't hurt either...hee. I had plans with friends today, but one got sick and someone else had out of town company come in, so things fell apart. I suddenly find myself with the day free. It's sunny and beautiful outside, and it's very motivating! I'm cleaning up some things I've been meaning to do for some time - and I got the CDs going again. I haven't listened to music since around the time of the holidays. It's very nice... I can be-bop around while straightening up and such. Plus, it's all NEW music to me right now. Woo! So things are looking up for now. Yay for that! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Josh Kelley - For the Ride Home CD

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